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I don't know

Tue Sep 29, 2009, 10:38 AM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Round Here (Pink Pop 2008), Counting Crows
I'm confused, but then that's nothing new. I suppose I'm just letting this confusion, my own ignorance, and several other things get to me that I always push away. I have a question to pose to anyone who comes across this journal that gives half a damn: why do you make art? Why does anyone draw, paint, write, sing, act, etc.? Why do we all feel the need to pour our souls, our intangible, unfathomable selves into a physical medium? Some men might think they have the answer to that question, at least on a personal level. I once did; shit, I've had several different answers to that at many times throughout my short, yet eternal personal history. I'm lost now, and could honestly use some guidance, or a hand to pull me along, or even some acknowledgment that someone else has been here before. I know it's stupid to go ahead and put all this online, where I hardly know anyone, and it may seem like a cry for attention. But it's theraputic for me; I guess it might be the knowledge that someone else may stumble upon it, unlike an actual journal. I'm just struggling now, apparently; but then again, what 18-year-old isn't in some way? I hardly ever cry, and I know it's unhealthy, but I'm crying more often now. I hate it. I need it. But I hate it. And I just don't know anymore, as if I ever did. I feel tired, but I don't know what of. I could use something, but I don't know what. I don't fucking know.

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  • Current Residence: My own little world
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: XXXL
  • Interests: Philosophy, Writing, Reading, Roleplaying, Religion, Sleeping, Anything Lovecraft related
  • Favourite movie: The Island of Dr.Moreau
  • Favourite band or musician: Creed
  • Favourite genre of music: Music is my favorite genre
  • Favourite artist: M.C. Escher
  • Favourite poet or writer: Stephen King, H. P. Lovecraft, Edgar A. Poe, and Orson Scott Card
  • Favourite photographer: AvatarXango
  • Favourite style of art: I'd have to say surreal
  • Operating System: Windows XP (Finally upgraded!)
  • MP3 player of choice: One that works
  • Wallpaper of choice: Something based on the works of Lovecraft
  • Favourite game: I like the .Hack games
  • Favourite gaming platform: Computer
  • Favourite cartoon character: Yuuko, Iroh, Nova, Dagwood
  • Personal Quote: "But why?"
  • Tools of the Trade: Pen and Paper

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:iconezhov:
Thanks for the fav on the Spirit Alive!

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Dmitry
:iconspudsy2:
thanks for the fave! :)
:iconnixity:
Thankies for the :+fav:! :glomp:

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:iconezhov:
Thanks for the fav on the Full Moon!

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Dmitry
:iconarukun14:
Thanks for the D9 fave. :)

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Tim Fangon - [link]
:iconwritten-word:
Thanks for that wonderful piece which, I think, really summed up the theme of the movie.

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:iconarukun14:
:) Thanks! :D

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Tim Fangon - [link]
:iconashoreneverreached:
thank you for the fav!

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For my part I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me dream. -Vincent van Gogh
:iconwritten-word:
Thank you for the artwork.

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